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Saturday, August 9th, 2008
10:07 am	No Subject I really haven't written on this web site in a long time. I feel like writing something but I don't know what and where so I decided to write it here. I am now a sophomore in college even though I failed last semester. I failed because I didn't show up like in high school, but in college they really don't care and are quick to be happy to give you a big fat F, but I am on a scholarship and now I have to pay that back and pay for next semester all by myself. I still have no clue what I want to do in life and what I want to be. Who would have guessed? I feel bad that all I do is sleep and work. I feel that I have no god given talent and I wish I had some direction in life because as of right now I do not, what’s the point of going to school if you are not even motivated to go. I now officially work full time so I can get insurance which they were happy to give me at a lovely rate of $200.00 a month just to be able to have it. and I went to the sleep doctor he said have sleep apnea  and they were quick to charge me out of network prices at a whopping $3000.00 for one fucking night of tests. Where and I am going to get all the money just to pay off one doctor? My debt is getting out of control and doctors have no clue why I sleep so much, and why I get headaches they are just making shit up and when they are wrong I needed more tests and it costs more money no wonder why doctors are so fucking rich are you kidding me! Damn if I go to jail in jail I would get 3 square meals a day and get all my drugs paid for, and then when I get out I could so have to government pay for all my medical bill isn’t that what are fabulous taxes are going for? I feel so fucking useless in life...i even kind of suck at my job too...done venting at the moment. Maybe things will get better i highly doubt it though. Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 26th, 2006
8:12 pm	offical announcement ok offical announcement...i got a third bird i named it captin...so now i have captin, jack, sparrow...i cleaned my room so i could move them in there i did...they rock...ok school is sucking for some reason i cant get it right to save my life...i am very worried about recycling club...i havent got anything appoved...i figured out why my ribs have been hurting, its my diet, its what i am putting in mouth...so from this day forward including tonite i was eat less and healthier and keep track of what i eat...i dont want to die because of food...and on another not i think i have sleep apnea...because i am so tired like all the time. so if i do have it and it gets fixed then i would have more engery and eat less. (maybe). but i cant count on that so the food thing i will do on my own well g2g eating some healthy dinner pork chops, yellow rice, brocclii with chesse (that is as healthy as i will get, includly since i eat fast food everyday. Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006
11:46 am	offically fucked ok i went to school today to help out a teacher and ms. lapointe said i cant come to school with my hair like this tomorrow so i have to redye it tonite...err this sucks ass i liked the color too...sometimes i wish this school was different...now i will be rushing to dye my hair before work because i sure as hell cant do it after and work isnt going to like it either... (Comment on this)
8:49 am	more ways then one ok my life sucks right about now i can beleive i got in trouble for not turning off  my mothers tv she woke up and started flipping out on me. whats up with that and this morning she was suppose to take me to gateway and what does she do "run out of time" give me a break, and on top of all that she blamed on me, said it was my fault are you kindding me. tomorrow is going to be the worste day of my life...i dont want tomorrow to happen but it will and there is nothing i can do about it. err life sucks right now and my mom is threating to kick me out again but this time i think she means it. it's not that when something goes wrong she has to kick me out but thats what she does. she needs to face her problems i think ms. munoz should take me with her...yeah like that would happen...i am wishing. college is just around the corner i honestly cant wait to get out of this hell hole. i need to forgive and forget but when the other person wont let it go there is a problem....i need a therpist....another bitch i am hungry. (there isn't any orginization skill in this writting what so ever and i am aware) (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 28th, 2006
2:45 pm	total sadness ok...i dont think my life can get any worse...err my favorite, the best teacher in the world it leaving... i dont want her to go....she has to and i understand but still, why? why now? i hope she comes back...on a different note, my english teacher i leaving too...she leave on friday and ms. munoz leaves on wed. (or does she) just playing... i am still so upset you dont even know my anger has turned into sadness and understanding...wed. we are going to do so much for her....christina has some stuff in mind but i think i am going to give her something of my own too...errr!!!!  i usta talk to her about everything from family to friends to life in general....i donno who will not only listen but help me too..(teacher wise)...i dont want her to go... i was in 4th period yesterday (because ms. munoz had to go to the doctor) and mr. gowan (my 4th period teacher) asked me if everything was ok and i was like yeah why he goes because you are in class... if she leaves i will have to go to class and 7th need a nother teaching assistant teacher. mr. c said i could be his but still not cool (also my fishie is going into mr. c's room becasue i donno who the other teacher is going to be and i dont want it to be in a room i donno who the teacher it) (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 12th, 2006
1:33 pm	classes ok my offical schedule and i love it.... 1. american government - kossman 2. american sign language - munoz 3. painting I / painting II (next semister) - zeiher (i donno if i spelled that right 4. marine science honors - gowan-smith 5. english IV - mallett 6 serior project - jones / weight traning -stevens (next semister) 7. teacher assistant - munoz but if i am not allowed then i will be the libarys assistant witch still rocks Mr. Way rocks and ya'll should give the guidence department credit they work really hard to do the schedules...it takes for ever to just fix one class and all the people bitching about lunch and "i dont like the class i am in" (more like the elective classes freshmen are bitching about) they should all just be denied uless good reason like my english teacher called me stupid now thats a good reason.if someone called me stupid i swear i would go nuts. not like my friends playing around but like a teacher meaning it thats fucked up...i bitch because i can god gave me a mouth and i am using it.....I LOVE MY CLASSES. now i want to go to school and do my homework and learn i am so happy...yay one last thing my birthday is in 3 days 10 hours 13 mins and 45 seconds....as of right now Current Music: Animal i have become - 3 days grace (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 10th, 2006
5:52 pm	life sucks ok so today i felt like i so got ripped off all the way around. i got in trouble right when i opened my eyes.... i rushed my mom because i wanted to get to school like i HATE my house so i wanted to go... so yeah and i guess today when i got out of the car my mother told my brother that i had all the chores today but she didnt bother to tell me. so i went home and my brother was like yeah i dont have any chores, so i was like wtf. she wanted me not to do them so i would get into trouble because thats how my family works...so today i did all my chores so i could go with my mom and deciede when i was done that she wasnt going to take...i was pissed and started running my mouth so she gave me more chores...so yeah i got ripped off...i HATE my family. they totally dont support me as is they wont even let me do sign languge in the house they said its rude....enough of that my birthday is wendsday. ~Alicia~ (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, August 7th, 2006
3:19 pm	Fcat I passed my reading FCAT so i am free of the FCAT crap Current Mood: happy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 29th, 2006
4:32 pm	Birthday My Birthday is in 18 days i can't wait and school starts in 11 days everday is going faster and faster...this year went so quickly....also i need like a signture name.... Current Mood: bitchy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 6th, 2006
12:13 am	Family = mentaly dysfunctional (again) i can't check my fucking email i am pissed..........and my family has hit a whole new low they are so mentaly dysfunctional and i will tell you why ok so my papa's birthday is friday...and my uncle get out of prision saturday. well my aunt and my other uncle is going to get him friday on my papa's birthday that is so wrong on so many levels...and i have to "watch" him what is he a dog i think not he is human and he know what he is doing he isn't two. I HATE THE WAY THEY TREAT HIM..... enough ranting there....i have my life kinda planed am going to get a job a cvs work there for a while and then get certified as a pharmcy tech and then save up my money to buy car reality struck me today and i know i am not getting a dodge carger or a covent so i am going to get a peice of crap car and "pimp" it out then... i know what car it is it free but it is really ugly i dont want people to make fun of me at school but what ever i will see what happen if i save my money for ever then i can get the car i want.........yeap i have to go to bed before my mom wakes up because she is nuts Current Mood: random (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, June 9th, 2006
9:39 pm	more rants from alicia Ok i so dont understand at all why people cant be responsible for their actions... i mean there is nothing that people are accountable for including me. my mom said get a job but you know what there is no reason to when nothing will happen they are not going to cut off the money i dont get...we have nothing to cut off anyway. im not looking for any, well actually i would like some money but i have all life to get it...my mom has manged to brake every car we own i mean when the truck broke on me it was because of years of neglet and i have only had the car of not even three months...she lost her phone and she thinks a crazy bitch co-worker took her phone...my grandmother said she would buy my mom and new phone in 2 weeks what the hell...when i messed up my phone and my dad broke hers she got one first, im alway put of the back burner....no one reprimanded her and no one is yelling at her of the cars. we are in so much finacial trouble we are so screwed....i tried applying for old navy but i accidentaly said yes to being a convicted thief and i cant go back it was an online app. and i cant apply again for another 3 months so thats out and i dont want to work somewhere like mcdonnals and you know what my grades sucked so bad that now i cant even get honor roll but thats ok now im really feeling like i donno why i am on this earth im not depressed or anything im just like wow i have alot of time to think and i really donno why im here....also my mom is like sick and went to the er yesterday and was released...now she is complaining about chest pains and im not sure what i should do...she doesnt want to go to the er she is making me check on here so im not sure if i will sleep tonite...also tomorrow is my dad birthday and on fathers day is my grandmothers birthday they both cant stand each other and i havent go my dad anything but thats not my fault he said if i clean his house he would pay me....well g2g Current Mood: bored (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 31st, 2006
9:14 pm	comments equals love feel free to comment on my blogs at least say read it or didnt like it or something (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 30th, 2006
7:44 pm	hey wats going on peoples??will my summer have has been sucking im mean i blew up my truck i drove it down 41 and it locked up also then i got sick, then my mom kicked me out again...............i sucked so damn bad on my grades.. i will copy and paste it rite now so you guys can make fun of me Gateway Charter High School Report card: 2005-2006 05/30/2006 Principal: Dr. Jennifer Putnam Cheal ELEVENTH GRADE Lee County #04242102 Student Name: PELLERSELS, ALICIA A Homeroom Teacher: WEINER, JOANNE PROMOTION STATUS: Passed Evaluation Key(s): E 90-100 Excellent S 75-89 Satisfactory N 65-74 Needs Improvement U 0-64 Unacceptable N/C --- Not Covered CNA --- Covered Not Assessed I I Incomplete A 90-100 B 80-89 C 70-79 D 60-69 F 0-59 Attendance Summary Attendance Q1 Q2 Q3 Q4 Student Information Days in grading period 46 35 48 48 ESE: No Days Absent 5 2 9 3   Days Tardy 5 2 4 9 ESOL: No GRADES Course Information Q 1 Q 2 Sem. Exam 1 Semester Q 3 Q 4 Sem. Exam 2 Semester Teacher Name Subjects Grade (45%) Grade (45%) Grade (10%) Grade Earned Credits Grade (45%) Grade (45%) Grade (10%) Grade Earned Credits SERRA 2100310 American History 91% 83% 84% 87% 0.5 78% 83% 73% 80% 0.5 ADEOSUN 2003350 Chemistry I Honors 81% 86% 71% 82% 0.5 53% 63% 80% 60% 0.5 MAJOR 0400310 Drama I N/C N/C N/C N/C N/C 90% 64% 95% 79% 0.5 HOLIMON 1001370 English III 84% 89% 97% 88% 0.5 N/C N/C N/C I N/C BAUMAN 1001380 English III Honors N/C N/C N/C N/C N/C 70% 78% 64% 73% 0.5 BAUMAN 1000410B Intensive Reading B 90% 94% 82% 91% 0.5 N/C N/C N/C I N/C VITALE 1202340 Pre-Calculus 71% 83% 53% 75% 0.5 83% 75% 72% 78% 0.5 PATER 2107300 Psychology I N/C N/C N/C N/C N/C 96% 92% 100% 95% 0.5 VITALE 1211300 Trigonometry 77% 82% 70% 79% 0.5 N/C N/C N/C I N/C MUNOZ 0717300 American Sign Language I 94% 98% 88% 95% 0.5 94% 90% 81% 91% 0.5 WEINER Academic Seminar P P       P P       Total Credits: 7.00 Total Earned Credits Sem. 1: 3.50 Total Earned Credits Sem. 2: 3.50 Grade Point Average 3.143  3.286    3.020    2.714  2.429    2.611    Parents, please sign and return a copy of the report card to your child's homeroom teacher within the next two days. Signature:_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ Teacher Name Subject Effort Participation Conduct Practice SERRA American History   N   E   E   N/C Comment(s):  Full of smiles...the only thing stopping an "A" in class is late work and organization ADEOSUN Chemistry I Honors   N   S   S   N Comment(s): A pleasure to have in class/Es un placer tenerle en clase,Conscientious student/Es un estudiante concienzudo MAJOR Drama I   E   E   E   E Comment(s): A pleasure to have in class/Es un placer tenerle en clase,Actively participates in class/Participa activamente en clase; Keep working hard... HOLIMON English III   N/C   N/C   N/C   N/C Comment(s):  BAUMAN English III Honors   S   S   S   N/C Comment(s): Actively participates in class/Participa activamente en clase BAUMAN Intensive Reading B   N/C   N/C   N/C   N/C Comment(s):  VITALE Pre-Calculus   S   E   E   E Comment(s):  capable of doing A or B work PATER Psychology I   E   E   E   N/C Comment(s): A pleasure to have in class/Es un placer tenerle en clase VITALE Trigonometry   N/C   N/C   N/C   N/C Comment(s):  MUNOZ American Sign Language I   E   E   E   N/C Comment(s): A pleasure to have in class/Es un placer tenerle en clase   Gateway Charter High School Report card: 2005-2006 05/30/2006 Principal: Dr. Jennifer Putnam Cheal ELEVENTH GRADE Student Name: PELLERSELS, ALICIA A Homeroom Teacher: WEINER, JOANNE American History 83% Time, Continuity, and Change [History] S Chemistry I Honors 63% Energy U The Nature of Matter U Drama I 64% Aesthetic and Critical Analysis E Cultural and Historical Connections U Skills and Techniques U English III I English III Honors 78% Literature S Reading U Writing S Intensive Reading B I Pre-Calculus 75% Algebraic Thinking S Psychology I 92% thinking and decision-making skills and demonstrates the use of new and emerging technology in problem solving S The student describes the stages of psychological development and recognizes the relationship between physical and chronological development and psychological development S The student explains various methods by which human beings acquire specific behaviors and build those specific behaviors into appropriate patterns of behaviors E The student recognizes that the study of psychology provides an organized scientific way of understanding human behavior, growth and development E The student recognizes the relationship between stress and psychological well being E The student recognizes various forms of abnormal behavior, possible causes of those abnormal behaviors and modern therapies to correct abnormal behaviors E The student understands and appreciates the various theories or orientations which psychologists have developed to explain human behavior E The student understands how information is collected, organized, processed and recalled by the brain and used to build a database of knowledge in human beings S The student understands the basic method and techniques used by psychologists to investigate human behavior E Trigonometry I American Sign Language I 90% Foreign Languages S (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 8th, 2006
2:50 pm	i hate him OK i'm so sick of my brother he is freaking 12 years old and he get so much more then me. i mean he gets to watch south park and all these scary movie im mean he is freaking 12 years old. he hasnt been in school since tuesday and he didnt go today i HATE HIM. i went to pick him up yesterday and he told me he want comming. i hate him if you dont like you sibling the comment.......also i hate cj too he will rot in hell Current Mood: pissed off (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 7th, 2006
12:27 pm	ok i suck today just sucked so damn bad i had to go this thing for english III the AP kids have 2 months to do something we had to do in one night. so me and janely do the stupid thing and then she was like you didnt have to write all that and you could of worked with a partner and on top of all that she really didnt even look at it....but wat ever i finished everything for american history english III i just need to catch up in chemistry im doing that monday. ok so i stayed after school today to stay with janely because she had to take a quiz. i asked about my FCAT scores and Mr. holimon went to go look and he came back and was like you failed. ok so i really freaked out so i went to my guidence councler and he gave me some tips. but i have taken this test 3 times now i suck so damn bad and you cant tell me i dont it seems like everybody else can pass test i want to pass so bad and the only thing holding me back is my test taking skills... coments= love at lest comment and say read it or something so i know how many people read my stuff, also i know i cant spell and my grammar sucks but deal with it you know Current Mood: frustrated (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 29th, 2006
3:31 pm	havent written in a long time ok wats up people i so need to get a job i have determinded im very broke.i need money. our school got a credited so i guess im graduating from this school im failing one class and its a class i really need to pass im so screwed...........i have to stay after school monday to work on my monolouge thats going to be so gay..but what ever. im so bored and i really dont have anything to say because my life sucks ass man. i moved back in with my mom and i think i hate it all ready.but watever and i want to go on this europe trip so bad......................... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 13th, 2006
7:28 am	update ok i know i havent written in for ever so here is goes. well i droped my phone in a cup of water, flushed my keys down the toilet, got kicked out of my house, fired, and not going on the eurpoe trip all in the same week. im a walking distater!!!!! and my grades arent as good as i want it to be. my life is so dramatic, and i cant stand it, im always in the middle with my family because my neither of my grandparents like my dad and one doesnt even like my mom. And everybody is really really mad that i live with my dad. so i donno wat to do anymore i mean me and my mom dont get along at all. i was at her house yesterday becasue she was going to give 50$ to clean her house, but i didnt finish it like her wanted. yesterday we wered suppose to get me a new phone but the places closes at 7 so my mom was like i'll come home right a 6 and then we will go. well at 6:45 she goes no im not taking you you didnt do a good job. so now i still dont have a phone. and i'm not going on the eurpoe trip any more because im poor, they all ready cancled me, but what really hurts is my grandparents are still going. my grand pare is in surgry today he is getting something done on his heart, it really scary he may not come back. yay will i have to go so i can try to get some more money for this stupid phone that i shouldn't have to pay for anyways. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 7th, 2006
9:05 am	yeah the one journal you must read yesterday i didn't go to school because of many reasons, 1st my duplex go sold and we had to clean it up to have the new owner have a walk though it like there seeing the property but whatever so i had to clean up... my living room is soo clean you could eat off it so happy i did it all by my myself and the i went for some driving lesson in stick shift i did really well like i didnt stall or anything. and the i had an appointment at 4:20 and i was like more nervious then the fist time because i knew my mistakes and i didnt want to make them again. but i pass with flying color i had a really nice lady and she was like do this and do that and i did. then she asked me to do a 3 point turn and i did. at the end of the test she goes you passed but we have to talk on our way up there. and she was like you did your 3 point backwards and i have only seen a few people do it and get it right and you are one of them. i was like omg i so rednecky i mean i did it absoultly backwards but i got my licence so i well start driving to school at least next. my crystler but i if want to drive this week i would have to drive my truck but i really dont want too because its stick and stuff i have an job orentation today at 5:00 to 6:30. i really happy this week i dont think know one can bring me down not even ms. major and she can suck on it. i have determined she is that bitter because she is old and old people should work i mean thats wat retirement is for... dah so will g2g do something more useful in my 4 ours of time i waiting to the fact to be over yay me i shouldnt of even came to school!!!! my spelling is so horrible that just dont even go there i do know my mistakes but i dont know how to fix them (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, February 17th, 2006
11:59 am	spelling my spelling is so horrible in the last thing i wrote im sooooooo sorry i do know the right way but im in a hurry g2g again (Comment on this)
11:55 am	sick sick sick omg i have been so sick moday i left school early and tuseday i have a doctors app and they told me i have strep and i couldnt go to school until thurday but then wendays night thursday morning i had an asthma attack and i went to the hoplite and they said i was border line pnemunia -spelled wrong! and i could go to school until i saw a doctor so today friday i went and saw a doctor and they did nothing for me and my chest hurt when i cough oh well i so want to go back to school its not even funny but monday there is no school so i have to wait until tuseday! i hope everybody had a great valentines day and has lots of fun at the dance. g2g my mom is yelling (2 Comments |Comment on this)